As I write this, I realize that this is the place I need to turn to.  I can’t talk with family or friends.  I’m just starting back up again with our occupational therapist and am waiting for a call back from our psychologist.  I need help.  I have been wanting to write a post now for several days and it took today to actually motivate me to write.  Normally, I have something uplifting to say.  Tonight, unfortunately, I don’t have much.  All I can think of at this point is HELP.  I am at the end of my rope as cliché as it sounds.  I have done this too long and can’t do it any more without some kind of relief.  I’m praying that your support gives me that.  So, what’s up you might ask?  Well…

For the last several weeks my Bean has been going down hill, fast.  Since summer she was doing amazing.  She was sleeping through the night which for a kid who didn’t sleep through the night EVER was a huge accomplishment.  She wasn’t seeking, she was behaving and keeping it together at school.  I didn’t notice anything until several weeks ago my husband was traveling and I was home with my other two kids (one home from kindergarten sick, other is 3).  She was seeking like crazy.  Constantly wrestling with her brother, touching and kicking her sister. Biting non-foods, rubbing soap all over her arms and hands.  I started back with the sensory diet we were more lax on.

The next week the meltdowns started.  We had a sitter for the kids one night.   Bean was bothering the sister, not listening to the sitter and drawing on the sitter’s belongings.  The sitter put her in her room to calm down (per instruction) = meltdown.  When I got home it took me 20 mins to calm her down.  Well, there goes having her stay with sitters.  A couple days after that fiasco she lost it at my parents and tried to kick my mom.  After all of this I brought back the therapists. …continue reading