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My Mother’s Eyes

May 8, 2011 by in Autism, Inspiration, SPD with 27 Comments

(a future letter to me from my son on Mother’s Day 2021.  He’ll be 15 years old then.)

Dear Mom,

Today’s assignment in my high school English class is to write a letter to our mothers.  It has to be between 600-700 words.  Our teacher told us to think of a phrase or a sentence that best expresses how we feel about our moms and elaborate on why we feel that way.

I know many people in my class are choosing to say “I love you”.

But you already know that.

I’m choosing to say simply “Thank You”.

Thank you for being the first one to really understand me.

Thank you for the countless hours you spent on the phone with the doctor when I was a toddler, trying to figure out why I wouldn’t eat.

Thank you for being by my side during my sleep study to find out why I wouldn’t sleep.  And thank you for ignoring the doctor’s advice to just let me cry all night until I got sick.  You knew it was something more than me just being a stubborn kid.

Thank you for sleeping next to me all those years until I was able to comfort myself enough to do it alone.

Thank you for letting me climb into your lap whenever I needed to.

Thank you for squeezing me tight when I asked, and for knowing when I needed a squishy hug even when I didn’t know myself.

Thank you for taking the time to fill out the piles of paperwork to get me the help I needed.  I know you cried every time you answered those questions.

Thank you for knowing that I needed that help.  For understanding that this was not about you, but about me.  Thank you for asking the right questions over and over again.

Thank you for all the times you had to leave birthday parties with me.  And family gatherings.  And movie theaters. …continue reading


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Autism is Like a Bubble

I was shopping the other day, something that both my children do not particularly enjoy, when the kids spotted these giant Euro Bubbles “walking on water” things.

The kids started jumping up and down, begging, batting eyelashes and everything else they could think of to get my husband and I to allow them to do it. I have to admit they did look like fun. But the SPD mommy in me, the autism mommy in me and every other red flag bearing mommy in me was screaming, “NO don’t let them do it.”

Against my better judgment, hubby got in line to pay for them to give it a go. My 10 year old son Jay who has Aspergers and Sensory Integration Disorder, Disgraphia and who knows what other label they can possibly throw on him, got into line with him.

To my surprise, Jay waited in line without complaining. As he got closer to the front he began to flap more and more in excitement, but he did not complain once about his feet hurting and needing to sit down the way he usually does when he waits in lines. He did not complain when they asked him to remove his shoes and socks.

He did not complain when he had to walk on the wet, cold and rather dirty floor. And he did not complain when they stuck the quite large vacuum type thing into his bubble to blow it up. All he did was sit back and hold his ears… but then all the kids were doing that, including my NT 7 year old daughter.

I am not sure who enjoyed the bubbles more… the kids or me. It was so much fun to watch my children. Especially Jay. I was afraid he would get nervous about being stuck inside this bubble as he does not like closed in spaces. But he didn’t. I was afraid the feeling of the plastic on his feet would drive him crazy. But it didn’t. I was afraid that he would get frustrated if he could not stand up. But he did stand up! …continue reading


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When the Pieces Don’t Match…

May 3, 2011 in Advice, Inspiration, SPD, SPD Awareness with 1 Comment

Recently, a dear friend of mine shared with me an object lesson, she had recently learned in a class about teaching special needs children.  Four people were called up out of the audience and each

Measures of Success

April 28, 2011 in Inspiration, SPD, Victories with 6 Comments

How do we measure success?  How should we measure success?  How does an SPD diagnosis change this, or does it?  These are questions I have struggled with since our son was diagnosed 2 years ago. 

Don’t Judge a Book…

April 24, 2011 in Anxiety, Autism, Inspiration, Parenting with 50 Comments

Several weeks ago I stopped at an automotive repair shop to get a quote on some work that needed to be done to my car.  I figured it wouldn’t take too long and that my

A Focused God on an Unfocused Child

April 23, 2011 in Advice, Inspiration with 6 Comments

Have you ever been to a point in life in which you are not sure which direction to turn or who to talk to? Have you ever got to that point in which you wanted

The Upside

April 16, 2011 in Inspiration, Seekers with 2 Comments

So I was thinking today that there has to be an upside to this whole parenting and SPD kiddo….and I realized it’s all the stuff. Don’t get me wrong, there is lots of it, and

Finding the Right Support

April 11, 2011 in Advice, Inspiration, Parenting with 10 Comments

I was tired of being different. I wanted support from other moms but everytime I would go to a meeting, I left feeling more alone than I did when I arrived. It seemed like no one understood me or what I was going through. How could that be? It was a room full of moms!

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